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As I was folding laundry today I started thinking about why I have been so afraid to approach the very things I have always wanted. Whether it has been getting involved with community, sharpening my skills in various crafts I love, or stepping out into an area of life I often dreamed of, I have struggled to take the necessary steps to get there. I wrestled with both my excuses and God as I fought against receiving many of the gifts He is currently preparing me. Living in this dichotomy of wanting the things God desires for me yet fighting against His hand to receive them is sadly something I have been doing for years. Over the years, I wanted to truly feel and embrace love yet I kept failing to spend time with the one who is Love. I wanted peace so badly that I would sleep to keep the pain that comes with living away but I would not take the time to rest in the one who is Peace. I saw the same thing went for wanting the blessings God has for me personally but still pushing away His hand out of fear.