Tag Archives: God

Brain Fog and Simple Approaches

My brain’s been fogging and lagging like a laptop with too many large applications open on it. Though that and waves of fatigue have come, I have found safety in going slow today, not rushing to get so many things done that can wait another day and taking my time while I venture into exploring more of what it is You are leading and directing me to do moment by moment.

The Perks of Writing a Blog While Growing

One of the perks of writing a blog and being in a place of widespread personal development is trying to figure out which parts to broadcast and which ones to just plain-old keep private. I say all of that borderline sarcastic. To add even more into the mix, I personally use different art mediums to communicate things that I go through and to even show how I get through things. Some things will remain private moments as not everything is always needed to be made public.

Over the Summer and through the Fall I started a self-portrait series using photography in which I photographed myself in both staged and non-staged environments to retell events that I’ve gone through, to display battles I was facing in those current moments, and to capture what I hoped to eventually step into and embody. As I progressed through the project, I began to feel tapped out of things to say through photography. I was at a loss for words when it came to blogging. Even my journal was dry through those months. I practically was just alive is how I felt. Just living one day to the next without aim, without point (in my mind), and without much effort.

Navigating Mental Health

Something that I haven’t been keen on talking about in a broad and open way has been my battle with mental health issues. So often it’s been after the smoke has cleared and I’m back in motion of building and rebuilding things that I begin to talk about it. Things get torn down in the middle of whatever mental crisis I had going on and shame stays over way too long of a visit, so I prolong talking about it. I then would sprinkle it with ‘Jesus-talk’ and then also sanitize it so it wouldn’t be so much of the negative emotions attached to it when I spoke it up. I’ve done it so much to the point that this last time when I went through a deep depression…I couldn’t even be honest with myself about how bad it was actually getting.

Pop Quizzes from God: Serving in Your Pain

Over the course of my life, I have acquired many false beliefs about myself. Those same beliefs mixed with temperamental emotions tend to come together and are often validated by circumstances and the words and actions of others. I then find myself with an active internal volcano ready to overflow into a terrible break down. How does any of this relate to a party you attended or photographs, Paris? Well I’m glad you asked as you read the question! Here is my account of how all of these things collided on a day when God called me to serve in my pain.

God’s Faithfulness in the Midst of a Pandemic, Infertility, and Divorce

My husband and I brought the new year in with our states of exhaustion dragging along behind us. We spent our time in two separate rooms doing two different things. What I did not know was we would soon be spending much more of our time in this way. One day in late February, he came home from work and into the room I used as an office and told me he wanted to talk to me. A sinking feeling grew in the pit of my stomach and it was as if I knew what the conversation was going to be about but I kept hoping for something different.

New Year. New _______.

Photo by Evie S. on Unsplash Most people this year are probably already gunning for their debit and credit cards to pay for new gym memberships or the latest tech gadgets to help them be more productive this coming year. Me on the other hand, I’m sitting here just wanting to know what places God wants me toContinue reading “New Year. New _______.”

Dear Dr. Robert Lang,

The diagnosis of having major depression came with a thrust and heaps of affliction on all fronts of my life. Just the night before, I spoke with my sister on the phone. Having given detail of the struggle I was enduring, I looked over a small bridge on Wabash Ave

Waging War in the Maze of Your Mind

We are told as Christians that we demolish arguments and every claim that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ (2 Cor. 10:5). But what happens when we try to wage war in the battlefield of our minds but our actions are still rebellious towards God? What happens when we really believe that we are within the will of God in a moment’s time, only to have Holy Spirit correct us and bring to our remembrance the fundamentals of our faith we seemed to have forgotten? One of them being OBEDIENCE.

Are You Commonly Practicing Unbelief in God?

I was reminded in my Jesus-time this morning and reading the Jesus Calling book, a sister in Christ gave to me last night, I absolutely have to submit every ounce of my planning to God. I did not realize that planning, even little things or trying to figure out how I was going to be able to pay this bill or that bill or what I can do in the physical realm to progress financially or in any and all careers that I desire to have, were all ways that I had been practicing and having disbelief in God.