Author Archives: Paris Lovee

God’s Faithfulness in the Midst of a Pandemic, Infertility, and Divorce

My husband and I brought the new year in with our states of exhaustion dragging along behind us. We spent our time in two separate rooms doing two different things. What I did not know was we would soon be spending much more of our time in this way. One day in late February, he came home from work and into the room I used as an office and told me he wanted to talk to me. A sinking feeling grew in the pit of my stomach and it was as if I knew what the conversation was going to be about but I kept hoping for something different.

It’s Not All About the Benjamins.

Just imagine it. You are rapidly approaching the month of December and the holidays are right around the corner. You know from your previous year that your spouse will be home for roughly four to five weeks straight because the business they work for does a seasonal shut down. Oh, and did I mention you are no longer working? Bills are piling up. You have ran clean out of money for emergencies. Don’t forget your second vehicle’s battery is corroded and you two are now living paycheck to paycheck. Living off of ramen and instant potatoes. For the cherry on top, God has promised to provide for all of you and your spouses’ needs during this time but that neither of you are to pick up ANY work. Come again?!

New Year. New _______.

Photo by Evie S. on Unsplash Most people this year are probably already gunning for their debit and credit cards to pay for new gym memberships or the latest tech gadgets to help them be more productive this coming year. Me on the other hand, I’m sitting here just wanting to know what places God wants me toContinue reading “New Year. New _______.”

Sunday’s Drive

The year is coming to a quick close and Sunday was a day that pushed me beyond a boundary that I had held up for quite some time. I believe for over a year now, my husband, Juan has vocalized his desire to start a gun business. Whether it be a gun shop or a shooting range or retail for shooting gear, if it has to do with guns, he wants in.

Dear Dr. Robert Lang,

The diagnosis of having major depression came with a thrust and heaps of affliction on all fronts of my life. Just the night before, I spoke with my sister on the phone. Having given detail of the struggle I was enduring, I looked over a small bridge on Wabash Ave

Dear Jesus,

Photo by Rohit Guntur on Unsplash ***The following is a prayer/letter to Jesus that I was asked to write down. When I wrote it down, I had no intentions on making it public but after writing it, I’m about 54% sure that the Lord was telling me to make it public. Other than spelling errors and names, nothingContinue reading “Dear Jesus,”

Waging War in the Maze of Your Mind

We are told as Christians that we demolish arguments and every claim that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ (2 Cor. 10:5). But what happens when we try to wage war in the battlefield of our minds but our actions are still rebellious towards God? What happens when we really believe that we are within the will of God in a moment’s time, only to have Holy Spirit correct us and bring to our remembrance the fundamentals of our faith we seemed to have forgotten? One of them being OBEDIENCE.

Living Life Mid-air

Living life walking by faith has been something that I’ve come to realize is like a big ball of fear with an awesome adventure inside of it. Kind of like those Wonder Balls I always wanted as a child but wasn’t allowed to have except maybe once. Though with the Wonder Ball, I enjoyed chocolate enough that I didn’t mind the hollowed out spherical contraption in which this mysterious prize was in, it wasn’t the reason why I wanted it. I wanted the toy inside of the candy.

Are You Commonly Practicing Unbelief in God?

I was reminded in my Jesus-time this morning and reading the Jesus Calling book, a sister in Christ gave to me last night, I absolutely have to submit every ounce of my planning to God. I did not realize that planning, even little things or trying to figure out how I was going to be able to pay this bill or that bill or what I can do in the physical realm to progress financially or in any and all careers that I desire to have, were all ways that I had been practicing and having disbelief in God.